Things seem to be getting better, slowly, but almost undoubtedly. It has been forever since the last time I posted here, I gave up on the site (Not knowing how in the world to use it). I am back with Cullen, and things seem to be better than ever. I feel safe with him, a luxury I do not remember having before, because of all his talk of moving to college and my fears of him moving on and out of my life. I made a promise not to date until I was 18, a promise made solely to myself, that once broken caused more of an issue with a few of my friends than it did me. I had never gone that long without dating, I feel I did well, considering that I broke it as of June, only a few months from my 18th birthday in November. Almost a full year passed. I feel so happy, yet so sad. I feel so lonely not having access to friends that used to be my life. The past year has been crazy, but I guess hard work is starting to pay off in some areas. Cullen is fairly quick to notice when I am in pain, and he tries his best to make better of it. He is the one single thing in my life that is steady as of this moment, and I am so thankful for him. When things are tough, I have him to hold onto to calm myself. I am thinking very seriously about being a different type of nurse. I haven't thought it through completely yet though. Things are so random for me right now, but I am more than confident that things will be fine. Change takes time, time requires patience. I love my Cullen, and I hope he knows exactly how much. <3